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Lazy Day!

Today was sunny, but windy and cold (ummm…it’s almost May, mmkay!) so Lexi and I decided to have a lazy pajama day. Item #1: don’t get dressed, PJ’s all day!

Then we:

1. read a ton of books snuggled in bed

2. ate breakfast

3. watched videos/I played online

4. made art with construction paper, glue, tape and stickers. Made a kite.

5. Went outside and flew kite (in our pajamas!!), came back in, too cold!

6. Played “ocean” in the tub to get Lexi warmed up: blue food coloring in the water and all her ocean toys.

7. Ate lunch while having a tea party.

8. Lexi played alone while I tidied up the house.

9. Looong nap, me included!

10. Now, yes, watching more videos as we wait for Daddy to come home….still in our pj’s!!

Clear lungs or insane child

So, after getting all the meds home a friend alerted me to be aware of the side effects (thank you!).  I begin to read the inserts/side effects. I notice on the Singulair that a possible side effect is aggression, violence, tics, neuropsychiatric disorders!


Ummm…..what? The doctor didn’t feel the need to tell me this?

So, I read a bunch of stuff online about kids taking Singulair that are going nuts hitting, screaming, extremely violent, even suicidal and as soon as they get off the med, they are fine.

So, I freak out a little about having to choose between Lexi breathing clear or being insane. Because all these websites also said that the drug did work a miracle in their kids breathing.

Art and I talked about it and decided to try it, Lexi was pretty bad off, not sleeping well due to her breathing issues. We agreed if she began to become insane, we’d call the doctor and take her off it right away. I don’t like giving Lexi meds but I don’t like her not breathing either.

Well, it’s been five days and…’s been a miracle with her breathing. Where she used to wake up 3-4 times a night with asthma attacks/coughing, she wakes up once for one quick cough, and sometimes not even that, she just sleeps through.

She used to wake up extremely congested with mucus dripping everywhere (sorry, I know that’s gross) and coughing a lot.

Now she wakes up clear and free breathing.

She used to snore with congestion every night.

Now, silent, peaceful sleep.

She’s a happier kid over all.

BUT (and everyone has a big but)….I’m watching her closely for violent behavior. And there have been a few instances of possible issues, but I can’t tell if its from the Singulair or if its just Lexi being three and strong willed.

She’s always been very opinionated (can’t tell you how many times we visit time out for her back talking-she’s starting to get better though) and very vocal. She’s always gotten frustrated when she can’t do something perfect and throws a little fit but the fit lasts maybe a couple minutes and she’s back to herself. She’s always been stubborn and strong willed. But never violent.

Since she started the meds there’s been two instances where I became concerned. In one I told her no about something and she looked at me with such anger that I’ve never seen in her before and slammed her fist down on the couch-she’s never done that before.

But then she got over it and happily went back to playing.

The other night, while Art was giving her a bath he tried to play with her by putting one of her bath toys in this little boat. She got mad and threw the boat against the wall-again, never done anything like that.

I’ve also noticed she’s throwing little things more too: when she finished eating she tosses what’s left on the floor. She hasn’t done that since around 15 months!

Each and every time of these instances she’s been disciplined.

But I’m driving myself nuts trying to figure out if its a phase, her testing boundaries or the Singulair…and if its the Singulair…is there worse to come?

Her next allergist appointment is May 1, so if we can make it to then, I’ll talk to the doc about other medicines.

Hopefully, this works

Lexi has struggled with bad seasonal allergies since she was born, her birthmother also suffers from them. Her pediatrician has been managing the symptoms as best she could with Lexi being so young.

We were on a routine of Allegra allergy medicine in the mornings, and, when needed, a nebulizer treatment of Xopenex. But this year, it just stopped working. Either she’s immune to the meds now or her allergies are just getting worse.

Because, now, it’s causing these mini-asthma attacks where she wakes up three to four times a night gasping for air, choking-freaking me out!

So, finally, in an effort to get my baby some relief, I took her to see an allergist who specializes in children. After listening to her chest and hearing me describe what was going on, he confirmed what I thought: severe seasonal allergies that trigger a wheezing asthma attack.

He explained that the Allegra and Xopenex are rescue meds, meaning, she gets them when she’s already wheezing/having an attack and they help to ease her breathing. The goal now, he said, was to get her off those and on control meds so she doesn’t get to that point of having an attack (and needing the rescue meds) in the first place.

So, now she is on this cocktail:

Mornings: Nasonex spray (this should be interesting when I have to battle her to let me spray this up her nose, we’ll see tomorrow!) and a  nebulizer treatment of Budesonide.

Evenings: Cingulair chewables and another Budesonide treatment.

We are to do these meds whether or not she’s having trouble breathing; they are meant to keep her from having trouble breathing!

Let’s hope this works. My poor baby needs relief!!!

On a side note, my mom actually recommended this allergist. She sees him (he treats adults as well). He was awesome and great with Lexi. Of course, now I have to tell my mom she was right. Again.

Many times  at her parenting advice I shake my head….then try it in desperation….and she ends up being right.

Bounce House = A Lot of Hot Air

Today I took Lexi to a Bounce House for her friend’s birthday party.

She had a great time with her friend, A. They held hands, danced around, laughed and giggled as only three year old girls can do. I am so grateful and honored we got to celebrate A turning 3!

However, ahem, Lexi is NOT a big fan of the bounce house (neither am I!).

Lex is a slow to warm up kind of kid, she likes to take her time studying something before she dives in.

She also doesn’t like it when it’s hot or too loud (oddly, that is exactly like me, despite having no bio connection); she doesn’t like things that are too high or kids that are too rambunctious.

The bounce house place was all of those things. She kept asking me to take her back into the lobby because it was “too woud! I don’t wike woud!”

She’s a nerd, a bookworm, a techie geek. She’d much rather sit and read or play an iPhone game than do loud, rambunctious, physical things-again, exactly like me.

So, after she went in the bounce house for a little bit, she sat herself down in the bench in the parent section, pulled out my iPhone and read her “Llama, Llama Red Pajama” book on it.

It so reminded me of….me. I always have a book with me. When I’m somewhere that’s too loud, crowded, whatever, I often retreat into a corner and totally lose myself in something to read.

When the bounce house lady announced “pizza time,” she calmly put the iPhone away and walked, like a little adult, down to the party  room and had a great (quiet!) time with A. eating pizza and juice!


If we survive…

Today, Art and I are watching a friend’s kids for the day. One is almost two and the other is 3 and a half. Lexi just turned three. We’ve played with the girls quite a bit at playdates and they love hanging out and playing together. The girls also love me.

But still, 3! At once!? Art and I are joking that this is our “test” for having more than one child!

I’ve got a bunch of things planned in case they get bored: play-doh, going to the park, painting, Wii games, dress up…..

Stay tuned!


**EDIT** Day went well, the kids had a blast. It was not as hard as we thought but it was much busier than we expected. It was pretty much constant picking up, playing, picking up, eating, cleaning, picking up….

At the end of the day we were both SO exhausted!

Didn’t see THAT coming

So, at my Bible study group this morning I had something totally take me off guard.

There’s a woman who’s pregnant. So, what, right? Pregnant women haven’t bothered me since Lexi came home. Even with pursuing child #2 now, it hasn’t really been an issue.

All of a sudden, this morning, I thought of the baby in her womb and got very sad and teary. I almost had to leave the room, it was just like back before Lexi. All of a sudden,  I really wanted baby #2, like NOW and was thinking ” it’s not fair.”

Sheesh! You’d think I’d be past this by now! But, the thing is, it passed quickly and I moved on. Silly emotions.

But, as far as child #2 goes, there are days where life as a family of 3 is going great and I think I won’t mind if #2 takes a long time to get here.

Then there are days where I want it to happen fast so that Lexi and her are not too far apart in age. Plus, I do NOT like this waiting, this uncertainty. That is the main thing, for me, in adoption that bothers me. No due date. No time frame AT ALL for when/if a baby will be coming home.

Then I get the fears, the same ones I had pre-Lexi: “No one will pick us, we’re too old, too unattractive, too boring….”

Those old tapes need to be smashed!

It will happen, right? I will have another child? Yeah….it will.

Anyway, pics of my beautiful girl:

My Diva!

So happy with the Grandparents’ Easter gift: a tea set

Tea party for the bunnies! Having a girl is SUCH fun!

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